Picking Myself Back Up
Cards on the table. I’ve gone through a rough patch.
I was doing so well. Writing, putting out podcasts and content.
Then my schedule got stretched too thin.
I had to make a choice between doing the right thing and what I wanted to do.
So I had to hit the pause on content.
Then I got sick.
Hit by a flu-like cold in the middle of summer that knocked me out for over a week. Residual illness stuck with me for a couple of weeks after that until I found I had a sinus infection. This has happened while my wife Kate is dealing with the severe illness of a family member.
When it rains, it pours.
It’s lightened up a bit.
We’re not out of the woods yet, but we have been able to come up for air.
However, I’ve found myself paralyzied, not finding the inspiration to get out of the funk.
Maybe, as dysfunctional as it sounds, I’ve been embracing the funk, the inaction, because it’s familiar to me. I know what it feels like.
But I can’t stay here. I’m going to have to act, because inaction is also a choice.
How do you eat an elephant?
One bite at a time.
I’ll keep writing. I’ll keep putting out podcasts. Because it’s not about me. It’s about helping someone.
Someone who might be in a state of paralysis and needs to know that he/she can get out of it as well if they just sit down and start.
It doesn’t have to be perfect. It doesn’t have to be a mountain of work. Just a little bit at a time
It’s time to dust off Steven Pressfield. It’s time to start listening to prayer if I can’t speak it. It’s time to open my mouth and work through it with Kate, and call my friends for support.
I’ll get through this and so will you.
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Kevin, it’s times like this where asking others to stand with you is the best idea ever. Just like Moses when he had others holding up his arms in support. (Exodus 17:12) Where you have no strength to pray, let me stand in the gap and speak requests and blessings for you. I stand with you in believing God WILL restore your strength and bring healing to your family in every situation. He will take you into a new season where you will be encouraged and blessed. Thank you for your writings and podcasts, they bless me with their realness.
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Thanks Jan. You are right fellowship is so helpful. We don’t have to go through these moments alone, though that tends to be our natural reaction. God has created relationship in our lives so we can help each other along the path. Thank you for your kind words of encouragement. You are a blessing.
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Wow Kevin, this just really hit home with me. I especially love your turn of phrase “listening to prayer if I cannot speak it”. You have so much to give, and you always give it, and then some. It’s ok – even healthy – to embrace the funk, I think, for a while. But you’re right; that can make it so hard to shake it off.
Gratitude us everything. And you have it in spades. This writing is like tapping into that, and helps me feel like I can do the same. Sending you a big fat dose of “You got this!” Love you.
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Thanks so much Lorna. Gratitude is a wonderful practice to help get out of the funk. Thanks for sharing, your love and support. I truly appreciate it.
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A journey of a thousand miles begins with one step, my friend. And when all else fails, as Doris would say, “just keep swimming”. Where there is movement, there is life. Where there is life, there is always hope.
Ok, I’ll stop with the cliches. Take care and good luck, my friend. If you need talk, I’m a good listener and I can keep a secret. Unfortunately, some the the people that I tell, can’t. Lol.
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Thanks so much Larry. I appreciate it. You are a good man.